Well, here we are. The new blog is up and running. It’s been a long time coming, certainly. There was a time when I was blogging on a regular basis. My creativity levels have always been high and used for varied projects from blogging to songwriting, poems, my stand up career in the 90s, and all sorts of output in between. There was seldom a time when I didn’t have some sort of project happening to throw myself into and feed that creative need. Even if it wasn’t particularly successful, or if everything else in my life was on the skids, creating helped fulfill me and brought me happiness.
And then, something happened. No, not the pandemic (although that didn’t exactly help). Somehow I lost the spark. I lost my ability to come up with ideas, or to see through what few ideas I had. I’d convinced myself that what I was doing wasn’t any good, that my words and ideas had no impact, no value. Somewhere along the way I’d lost belief in myself. I lost my happy.
Now don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t depressed or anything. I still had joys in my life through family, friends, my sense of spirituality, and the enjoyment of other people’s art, I was just mostly unable to make any art of my own. This has been going on to one degree or another for about four years now, give or take. I’m not really sure why it happened, either. Maybe I just hit a wall and was all used up. Perhaps I just needed to recharge my batteries and it took a lot longer than expected. Maybe I let life get in the way more so than is healthy for a guy like me. Could be that the whole country/world went absolutely bonkers for a while and I just couldn’t figure out how to deal with it in a constructive way. I guess it was a combination of all of those things.
Here’s the thing though, during that time I did try. There are a few bits and pieces of things that have yet to see the light of day. I tried a few short stories . Very short. Like, this blog post is about the same length as a few of them kind of short. Turns out long narrative and descriptive detail isn’t really my thing. I’ve had a few song ideas, wrote a couple of projects for kids, I mean I really did make an effort. Just not very often and half-heartedly. I was used up-but I didn’t give up,
Because, every once in a while, someone would comment bout how they wished I was still doing stuff. One friend called me an “excellent communicator”. She said it passingly, but right when I needed to hear it. Others have asked when they’re going to hear more music from me. Another told me that I have a “unique perspective” that I should share more often. “Unique perspective” being code, of course, for “loopy as a loon” but I’ll take that as a compliment.
So that brings us up to date. Over the past few months I have felt the creative juices stirring. More ideas are coming, I’m getting excited about the creative process. I think it’s finally time to jump back in to all the projects I have left sitting fallow and breathe life into them once again!
This blog is where it starts. Phase one, if you will. Why now? Why not? Why Mondays? Well, if the point of creating is to joyfully connect with others (and I believe it is) then what better day than a Monday to bring a little happy to your week? Also. Mondays are my day off from my “real job”, and since my wife is no longer working from home I can have access to the computer. But that doesn’t sound as cool.
So I’ll be checking in with you all every Monday until I run out of ideas or just plain forget. But I’m fired up-and I can’t wait to see you next week.